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<center>bref instant de romantisme</center> http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/ <center>The weather is here. Wish you were beautiful.</center> Wed, 18 Jun 2008 19:45:15 -0000 Thu, 12 Jun 2008 05:28:26 -0000 <center>bref instant de romantisme</center> http://images.dreadedfish.multiply.com/logo http://dreadedfish.multiply.com 100 100 Now Three hours ago: fighter pilots, Roosevelt the boston terrier, water color on plain white paper that bears battle scars, and cake batter ice cream on a waffle cone. Oh three envelopes full of you and ink blots (more Rorschach?) and photos of phalanges etc. etc. etc., 549 pages of an unmerciful string of words: highly intellectual, and the 12' x 18' enclosure. We were shattering air molecules, the onlookers felt inappropriate. It was that. No one else felt the universe conspiring at that moment so it was perfect. Then of course there were the numbers: 284, 19, 90 -- even the sense of chronology is lost. We were yet there is also the possibility that we were not (after all, in the end, what is the difference?). I'd like to think that we were and we were both real and we were both there. If such is the case, every fucking thing makes sense. It just makes sense. There is also the deep metallic blue. There were hints of shimmer in all the odd places. No one else was paying attention so it ... http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/89/Now Thu, 12 Jun 2008 05:28:26 -0000 How Light Grows A mini book i doodled on a napkin during my 5 min afternoon http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/photos/album/107/How_Light_Grows Thu, 12 Jun 2008 04:57:44 -0000 Lo-Fi Covers These ain't the best covers in the universe, for sure. They're rough and at times sharp. They're raw and they sometimes enter in high notes, all of a sudden. If you're sharp, you probably might even notice different wording and "mispronunciations". Yeah. I'm proud of them though. http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/88/Lo-Fi_Covers Fri, 25 Apr 2008 01:42:09 -0000 The Bicycle Search Fuji Superia (x-processed) http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/photos/album/106/The_Bicycle_Search Fri, 18 Apr 2008 23:29:50 -0000 Differing signals: (super)natural to human First set of four is a story. Next four photos are a trolley-walk set. Last three photos are meant to be viewed vertically. A few new discoveries chemically stimulated by old streets and old eyes meeting for the first time. Ilford XP2 http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/photos/album/105/Differing_signals_supernatural_to_human Fri, 18 Apr 2008 20:21:03 -0000 Time to be Smashing? If there is ever an audience out there (or in here. same, same.), it is time to pick up those saggin' n' deafenin' ears of yours for a nocturnal hello. I am going to lie about something in a very short while so keep em hanging: I saw The Rolling Stones LIVE in concert!!! At least I thought I did...I was only seeing them through the super humungous extra extra large gargantuan IMAX screen! And indeed, it is life. It is, life-ier than life. How do I put this. It was so real! I was screaming in my seat and I was digging my fingers<a href="http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SAFlCwoKCroAAClwBsc1"><img class="alignright" src="http://images.dreadedfish.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SAFlCwoKCroAAClwBsc1/Photo%20100.jpg?et=vIA1gjXi4eXuRQcNyydmIA&nmid=" border="0"></a> into the plastic arm rests. Wow. That's the way to age: best way to flaunt their, all in all, 200-sumthin' age. Anyways, presently, I am busiest than all the other busiest buzzing beez-timez combined. I work 10 hour days (that is if I don't "anonymously" take off in the middle of a "Here Comes the Sun" day to ride my Fuji $10 bike in the heart of Kansas City OR go to school) as a Purchassing Assistant for the kansascitymisourischooldistrict (always 3 mouth's ... http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/87/Time_to_be_Smashing Sun, 13 Apr 2008 01:33:16 -0000 I just had to I was browsing through some of my favorite go-to websites and found this quote from Snoop Dogg in an interview with XXL: "What the fuck is a Barack?! Barack Obama. Where he from, Africa? ... Wow, Barack! The nigga’s name is Barack. Barack? Nigga named Barack Obama. What the fuck, man?! Is he serious? That ain’t his fuckin’ name. Ima tell this nigga when I see him, “Stop that bullshit. Stop that bullshit” [laughs] “That ain’t your fuckin’ name.” Your momma ain’t name you no damn Barack." hahahaha wow. Time for a blonde moment! http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/86/I_just_had_to Wed, 9 Apr 2008 01:43:22 -0000 1001 69th Terr. Fuji Velvia 100, cross processed. Slept over at Sam's place, her entire family was there, her entire nuclear family at least. We played with the kids all day long. :) They came out better than I thought they would. Each shot is a gem indeed. A teeny tiny note to self though: try using a blue filter dude. And down 2 f stops! if possible, that http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/photos/album/104/1001_69th_Terr. Fri, 28 Mar 2008 03:08:49 -0000 You and me in the elevator Oh, an incurable humanist you are. On another note, yesterday was the first day of spring. Beautiful green seeping out of the earth's nooks and crannies. Time for bike rides! :) http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/85/You_and_me_in_the_elevator Fri, 21 Mar 2008 17:56:35 -0000 Ilford XP2 Super Colored film, without the color. Looking forward to some velvia or superia shots. It's spring break! I should give myself a break! http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/photos/album/101/Ilford_XP2_Super Thu, 20 Mar 2008 05:31:17 -0000 3.5 x 4.2" Polaroids from Lawrence/Olathe/Overland Park. 3 counties in a day? Hell yeah. Picked up a few records at Love Garden @ Lawrence, KS. Walked around Mass ave, talked to random people smoking in the street, hit some vintage stores, found awesome art and coffee. Drove to Olathe, counted trains (I counted 4, Jamie counted 5 haha). Headed to Overland Park for more vinyl at Vinyl Renaissance and coffee at Dunn Bros. By the way, it was awful. Awful coffee. Bleh. Awful. Ended the day by renting Hedwig (getting ready for the play next week!). Drove home towards the night sky, windows rolled down, Regina Spektor blaring through backseat speakers. Awesome http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/photos/album/100/3.5_x_4.2 Wed, 13 Feb 2008 06:06:55 -0000 From english to french and back again. So I was playing with BabelFish trying to translate stuff and I translated my blog post: How I learned to stop and breathe. This is it in French: "Je n'ai pas voulu dormir. Je n'ai eu aucune raison de dormir. Et j'ai vu ma réclamation "juste respirer" sur ma fenêtre. Et une partie de moi ne se rappelle pas mon nom, seulement cela j'a été baptisé du nom de mes grands-mères. Il n'y avait jamais beaucoup de raisons de regarder dehors, à moins que naturellement il ait dû regarder le ciel, mais les ballons rouges étaient trop d'une raison en soi. Ils étaient criants et dominants. Ils étaient un-purs et sûrement De-vierge-ized, mais ils ne se sont pas inquiétés. Ils étaient fiers et ils ont su qui ils étaient, à la différence de moi. Notre seulement similitude est que nous avons dansé avec de l'air. Puisque j'oublie, j'oublie facilement. J'oublie ma perte de virginité ou mes nonloss ? Ou était-elle toute dans le plan de mon imagination ? Toujours, la chanson de Noël rebondit outre de nos mur... http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/84/From_english_to_french_and_back_again. Fri, 8 Feb 2008 05:04:49 -0000 Title: Required field. Life is so fucking bipolar. Manic: 1. Scored an internship at a prestigious and highly respected private Jesuit high school. 2. Met a lot of new people and fell in love with a lot of beautiful soul-creations at Crossroads first friday. 3. Had the best vanilla latté's with whipped cream at the most adorable coffee shops (aside from the crave). Depressive: 1. The crave just went out of business. 2. I was in an ugly car accident. 3. I have no car. 4. I have to get the car fixed. 5. I have no money to get the car fixed 6. My mother has the worst insurance ever. 7. I have to take the bus. 8. and the weather isn't cooperative. 9. I have little/no time to talk to people anymore. 10. I have no more time for myself. I can't believe this. I can't believe this. I can't believe this. I can't believe this. I can't believe THIS. Everything was supposed to be better. I'm having a hard time thinking. My brain is suffocating. Life support? To hell with oxygen. http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/83/Title_Required_field. Fri, 8 Feb 2008 04:29:07 -0000 An open letter...to you. Hello. I would be typing and spitting out words as if I am talking to you personally. I hope you don't mind. Because sometimes it's getting annoyingly monotonous to be talking to myself, or to people who I think would be better off dealing with life with a split-brain. One telegram of an order for a swift, butcher's knife action cutting of the corpus callosum please? Now you're probably thinking how irritatingly brutal and irrational I am right now. And probably you are right. All I can say though is that the only thing keeping me together right now is Regina Spektor. Yesterday it was coffee with mint and whipped cream with this painfully charming young woman with gold defined locks whose silver-glittered hair thingumajig beautifully complemented her sparkling, smiling eyes. She is a sweet girl. And I still don't know her name. Whilst the night before that it was vanilla wonderland. These little things mean the world to me. No matter how superficial they may seem, they hold this body ... http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/82/An_open_letter...to_you. Fri, 25 Jan 2008 06:47:21 -0000 Chill Spencer and his http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/video/item/16/Chill Thu, 24 Jan 2008 22:43:13 -0000 God and the amoeba analogy So it took me about 3 minutes to remember the word "analogy". I hate it when that happens, when a word escapes you just when you mean to use it, and I always go: "ano ulit yon? parallel. parallel. hmm. pucha parallel." I remember how, sometime ago, I could not live without the spell check-ing powers of old desktops, and now I think I could not live without the dashboard dictionary/thesaurus of my mac. Whenever I forget the specific word I would like to use, my mac dictionary/thesaurus always nails it down for me. Anyway, last night Sam and I went to a quaint little coffee shop: The Crave Cafe. I had a 16oz vanilla latte modestly taking up the volume of a white paper cup. Better than Starbucks. Better than the coffee in school. Smooth, silky and rich vanilla latte made especially for my heaving frozen chest. Thankyouverymuch. I met Handyman, a local handyman who goes around with red nails, hugging people and asking them what the meaning of life is. I didn't know. And I'm actually ... http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/81/God_and_the_amoeba_analogy Tue, 22 Jan 2008 20:02:47 -0000 And the sickness is welling in empty bodies There are five water falls, or at least five that I can count, that is breaking the snow capped mountains. These mountains are ragged and sharp, they induce a blood of turmoil. But today they are white, transformed-mutated-morphed, and they look like running clouds on a caffeine high. I feel like Atlas, only with a flu and weary and near the ground and almost giving up. Whereas Laika though free in meaning, is still (preferably) trapped in that forever-freedom of the winter chill, battling the haze and jagged-edged peaks. Which is better? Tomorrow is time for leaving. And my eyes are still swollen and heavy, my body numb and still. Tomorrow is leaving today. http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/80/And_the_sickness_is_welling_in_empty_bodies Fri, 28 Dec 2007 20:04:52 -0000 A Mad Russian's Christmas Wait for it...wait for it...freaking retinal assault! Wait for the neon. :) A Mad Russian's Christmas - Trans-Siberian http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/video/item/14/A_Mad_Russians_Christmas Mon, 10 Dec 2007 04:18:47 -0000 Trans-Siberian Orchestra - Beethoven/Requiem The best freaking rock/orchestra/light show i've been too! Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my new musical love! I pirated this video from youtube pero i'll post the videos i took too. The neon light beams are the http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/video/item/13/Trans-Siberian_Orchestra_-_BeethovenRequiem Sun, 9 Dec 2007 06:59:14 -0000 Because We Can, We Must: On world's plights I've been flipping through pages of my speech book to decide what speech to do a make-up-paper work on. I saw the commencement address Bono gave to the 2004 UPenn graduates and I thought "this would be interesting", so I read it. Sure enough, it was interesting, it is interesting. I haven't really paid due attention to the world's plights. The recent Save Darfur came to my attention through the very subversive Instant Karma cd, the Yoko initiative. Same goes for (RED) or (PRODUCT)Red: voila! the (RED) iPod. Closely tied to the (RED) initiative is (here it comes...) Bono's ONE Campaign. America has one facet bravely, or unfortunately?, put into motion by these consumer products, rock stars, hollywood personas, multi-million corporations (etc, etc, etc) and day after day they are saving Africa, Darfur, victims of AIDS, and the impoverished miles away. They stride on, bravely, to far away lands to go a step further and do something about IT, their causes, their battles. The question... http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/79/Because_We_Can_We_Must_On_worlds_plights Fri, 30 Nov 2007 05:13:46 -0000 Welcome, Cold. This is my killer post-fall/pre-winter playlist. Super glued to my ears. http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/78/Welcome_Cold. Fri, 23 Nov 2007 04:21:55 -0000 A forecast of snow showers I usually check y! weather so I can plan what i'll wear when I leave the house, to make sure i'll be comfortable whatever the temperature is. It's at 46˚ F at this very moment, with slight rain showers. I noticed the front moving South at around 6 am earlier today, yesterday, November 20. The coulds were in such a hurry. <img class="alignright" src="http://images.dreadedfish.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/R0PZdgoKCtgAACxiPxg1/snow%20showers.jpg?et=hRflNFdcnit4X7nHZKzpmQ" border="0">Tomorrow, later, there may be a possiblility of snow showers. I wonder what that will be like. I'll be out tomorrow, later, driving to my favorite photo supply store to get rolls of 120 film and i'm pretty anxious of what will come. I'm not completely positive about the snow thing though. It isn't even that low a temperature now. Still, i'm wanting to feel that. I'll be out, waiting. http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/76/A_forecast_of_snow_showers Wed, 21 Nov 2007 07:09:32 -0000 Closing the Sky It's your words, I know. Lately this is all i've been listening to: in the car, writing papers, daily commute, lying in bed. Thank you for this song. Titik: Nerisa http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/music/item/186/Closing_the_Sky Tue, 20 Nov 2007 04:37:07 -0000 Build-a-Pinhole-Camera If you're interested in pinhole photography, or want to try it out, download the pdf instruction file. I haven't tried it out yet pero I built a mini matchbox pinhole camera pero still, haven't gone out to try it. What's great about pinholes is the whole experiment thing. Checking the diameter of the hole and it's depth of field ratio. Plus pinhole cameras capture wide angle shots so more print fun! :) Anyway, i've been studying the mathemetics behind the "mechanism" and it is complicated, for such a lo-fi device. haha I'll need more film though, i'm all out! More on Pinhole Photography: <a href="http://home.online.no/%7Egjon/pinhole.htm">John Grepstad - Pinhole Photography</a> http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/journal/item/75/Build-a-Pinhole-Camera Mon, 19 Nov 2007 20:44:55 -0000 Historia (Fan Dance) Watch the other videos: <a href="http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/video/item/11">Singkil</a> <a href="http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/video/item/10">Pangalay</a> See the pictures: <a href="http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/photos/album/89/Historia_A_History_of_the_Philippines_through_Dance">Historia: A History of the Philippines through Dance</a> http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/video/item/12/Historia_Fan_Dance Mon, 19 Nov 2007 18:49:30 -0000 Historia (Singkil) Again, the musical accompaniment is live. FOR REAL. :) This is such a powerful and dramatic dance. Watch the other videos: <a href="http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/video/item/10">Pangalay</a> <a href="http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/video/item/12/Historia_Fan_Dance">Fan Dance</a> See the pictures: <a href="http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/photos/album/89/Historia_A_History_of_the_Philippines_through_Dance">Historia: A History of the Philippines through Dance</a> http://dreadedfish.multiply.com/video/item/11/Historia_Singkil Mon, 19 Nov 2007 01:10:34 -0000